This day started out horrible, I just woke up on the wrong side of the bed. My mood belonged to an angry angry person for a majority of the morning. I didn't want to be around anyone. I got on the boat, the little one today- just two of us. I think the captain knew my morning was rough. We left the bay. Heading out to sea. Dolphins were coming up on the horizon, 40 of them or so. He looked at me and said, "Grab your mask. Sometimes you need to recharge your batteries." As I ease into the water at the stern of the boat, it is all I can do not to start crying into my mask. I'm so angry and my heart hurts.
I look down.
There they are. I'm in about 60 feet of water and the dolphins are swimming under me. A mom and her baby first. Turning to look at me, they casually keep swimming. The rest swim by under me, their tranquility rubs off on me through the water. I don't cry.
I just lay there in the water watching them pass by me, heading south-no agenda, just swimming because that's what they're good at and they love it.
I look up at the captain who has turned the boat around and is heading back toward me, he smiles. I climb up on the side and sit there watching the dorsal fins gradually get further and further from us.
A silent thank you drifts out to them from me, just for being there.
Sometimes the day just doesn't feel right, but that doesn't mean that people won't surprise you and help you turn it around.
I miss so many things, but I know that my life is going the way it should go. It is impossible to be in all the places I want to be at the same time.
Embrace the present. There's something to be gained, no matter where you may be.
Sometimes you just need to recharge your batteries.
Aloha,
M.
